Ever just wanna SCREAM?...

Ever have one of THOSE days? You know, the one where everything is going great. You have plans for the day to just hang out and enjoy life and the beautiful day with someone? Only to have it interrupted with something you really don't want to have to deal with? Yet you really don't have a choice, you just can't bring yourself to pass this one on to the next person. Not without feeling like you'll be burning a bridge that no matter how much you wish was a closed now and again, you just can't do it. Then once everything is squared away and all is said and done the only thing you can do is go to bed and cry yourself to sleep like a child. Mainly because you're frustrated beyond belief, and also because sometimes it's the only thing that will make you feel better.

Well I had one of those days yesterday. The girls and I met Jason for lunch. He had to leave before us to get back to work. I'd planned on walking around town and shopping with the girls. Just taking our time and enjoying each other and the day. Pick up a belated gift for someone, maybe stop at a park, or the beach for a few minutes.  Shortly after Jason left I got THE call. I was so instantly frustrated and angry I said I'd have to call them back in a minute. I don't think I've ever been that angry before, or that quickly.  Instead of having a wonderful day with the midgets as planned I took them to grandmas and left to clean up another mess. By the time I returned home I had to cook dinner, which I could barely eat. We watched some tv with the girls then we all went to bed. Brace yourself....I was in bed at 10:30. Granted I probably didn't actually fall asleep until around 11:30, but still that's hours early for me.

Today I feel a little better, but the happiness from yesterday is still covered with clouds just as the sky is today. Maybe the sun will peek out and brighten the day. For now, I'm off to run errands & clean the house for babysitting.